What a disappointing delay of an update. I’m not blogging about blogging because my ideas suppressed to a standstill — it just seems to be a relevant topic considering how I did not follow through the deadlines I set for myself. I’m 9 days past due. Shit. At least one post per week, Renee. Consistency is key. No excuses!
Was I busy? Well, yes and no. I only work part-time at my service industry job, but the intensity of work I endure in a typical 6 hour shift weakens my body physically and mentally equivalent to [fill in creative analogy because I really can’t come up with one]. It’s multitasking to the extreme. If people want to underestimate how hard I really work at my job, they don’t know what hard work is. Sometimes I would just like to throw them into my shoes just to see how they can handle running a one-man-show behind the counter making coffee for the line of stern customers intimidatingly staring into their soul.
One would think that working in restaurants would cause the worker to lose some weight due to all the pacing and lifting on repeat. Honestly, all the mental stress involved cancels it out. Not only that, my entire body aches to such an extreme that it’s enough to make a legitimate excuse to skip the gym. My theory: working during a rush for 1 hour is equivalent to eating a cheeseburger.
I always tell myself: If I’m passionate about writing, I should keep up a steady schedule. People who have writing as profession are hit with deadlines left and right and here I am, the “aspiring writer”, who is making excuses. Does forcing oneself to write hinder the creative process? I can’t be hard on myself, however. I watched a lot of YouTube videos from BigThink where writers share their advice and experiences with writing. It’s really motivating.
I am currently on medical leave from my employer due to surgery. More details on that hours before operation on Thursday — that’s tomorrow. Keep up with my Twitter because I really wanna show you guys my x-ray! Since I’m going to be bedridden for days or maybe weeks, I will utilize the idle time to write and engage in stimulating reads. Hopefully.
I’ll keep you posted.
One of the great ways for us to have more satisfaction in life is to express gratitude for all the things we have. It doesn’t matter how big or small it is. When we wake up in the morning, take a brief moment to write down all the things you are currently grateful for. For example, that could be “I am grateful for having a roof over my head”, “I am grateful for witnessing a new day” or “I am grateful that I will be getting my paycheck today.” It’s kind of upsetting that we, as a society, are conditioned to focus on the things we don’t have. When we express gratitude, we are letting the idea into our consciousness. First, by taking the time to think about what we are grateful for, and then the mere act of writing it down will surely let the thought of gratefulness sink in. Over time, these thoughts will enter our subconscious, and we are inadvertently becoming more and more positive through our personality and mindset. On the contrary, when we repeat negative thoughts of not having the car we’ve always wanted, not having enough money to pay bills or falling behind in class, then sure enough, the thought your consciousness is strongly focused on will continue to become part of your reality.
I’ve experimented with this before, and it truly does work. I used to be in deep depression and underwent a risky lifestyle that my sane self would not approve of. I’m amazed for the major turn around I’ve done. If I were to write down something that I am thankful for now, it will be that I’m thankful for seeing the world through a positive lens. It’s almost crazy at how my thinking shifted completed from the opposite side of the spectrum. When you are undergoing a tough time or are contemplating suicide, I’ll tell you that it’s not the end of the world. I know it’s so cliché to say that to one who is in deep emotional trouble, but I can’t emphasize it enough. Life is all about ups and downs. When you’re feeling down, there will always be a chance for you to gain happiness again. On the other hand, when you’re feeling happy, appreciate exactly what you’re feeling at the moment, but don’t take it for granted – be prepared for the pitfalls that may imminently come your way. It’s inevitable. It’s just the fact of reality, and that’s what so fun about it. I view life as a game and your only way to master it is through your way of thinking.